it’s so rare that you meet someone who makes you feel so warm and happy like they are like sunshine and you just want them around all the time
hahahah what. i am so so clueless?? 1. make sure it’s someone you are comfortable doing anything around. umm.. 2. put effort in, don’t expect the other person to do everything (I struggle with that haha). 3. nerves are good and normal, but don’t let them make your decisions for you. 4. TALK to them… let them know how you feel. be real about it! life’s too short, y’know? I’ve definitely learnt how to do that and why it’s important from my last relationship! 5. don’t expect anything?? like, don’t make the other person (or yourself) feel obligated to do anything just cause you’re “going out”. don’t be afraid to just chill out. yeah that’s it I’m still learning. maybe I’ll have some more in a few months as I learn more.
well, my laptop is a piece of dying shit. not much life left in it now. I’m getting a mac soon mm. I just wanted to take some time to like …. rethink things. work on stuff more. I realised how shitty all those recordings that were put together in a few hours over coffee in my bedroom were. ha ha ha. need to re do everything and work on it till I’m happy with the finished product. no need to rush! also, I ripped my throat so it’s like… I sound horrendous.. I’m getting better now though. I might even get ashlee to sing my music for me :—-) that would be so cute (ashlee is doing singing at uni, she’s amazing). cause I do not enjoy singing that much, I just like the writing side of it!
only if people message me that she’s been writing about me on there. shrug. I assume similar happens with her, idk (so I’ve heard). don’t rly care a whole lot, unless it’s directly about me.. then I’m curious! which I assume is normal, haha
absolutely, this is so true!! I’m so happy!! thank you sweet pea! :—) xx
20, two years older than me
it’s old news, but we’re not friends anymore, which I’m very happy about. idk if it’s a coincidence or not but I’m so much happier and more confident and I have more / better friends now that I don’t associate with her. she bothered me for a long time, she messed with my head (faked an ed, apparently with “good intentions”, not that that makes a difference.. it’s still a shitty thing to do), and after being around her I would leave feeling upset, insecure, and small. pretty sure that’s the definition of a toxic friend… not good, huh. she’s probably a great person to be around for other people, just not for me. thank you!!
I met her on instagram a few months ago. we decided to meet up for coffee, and we clicked right away! she’s the best ❤️ haha, we were a bit drunk; and she asked if she could kiss me. it was cute, short, and sweet. i had been irrationally terrified of relationships and kissing and sex and just everything to do with it for years which led people to call me a prude, which was not cool, ugh (Claire). being afraid of such a normal common thing made me feel like an alien and like there was something wrong with me. reality was.. I was just scared and timid and tied up with my illness. but I think I’m starting to get over that, which is so good and freeing.
Unfriendly reminder that in America it’s reasonable to say an unarmed black kid deserved to be shot six times because he might have robbed a convenience store, but a white kid shouldn’t be kicked off the high school football team just because he violently raped a girl.